desire

i hurt
with my wanting
of you

a pain i welcome
a pain i treasure
a pain i rock deep
into my soul

my desire for you
is not pure
is not an immaculate sheet
is not just made of light
it’s raw and harsh and demanding
it’s gritty and unbearably sharp
it’s hot lava out of control

i ride these waves
roll and am ambushed
rocked and shocked
consumed and drunk to the dregs

i feel like a punchy drunk
all my bearings disappeared
you smash me
out of the ballpark

does this ever stop
how can i stop
do i want to
do i want to stop wanting you

no

i reach out for more
with both hands
with heart bared
with trembling need
with eyes wide open
with blurred brain

this liquid ache
ache ache ache
oh darling creature of tempting flesh
you reduce me
to this,
you do.

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