Well this is certainly a blog about kinky firsts.
I will be reading a selection of my kinky poetry, in English & French, at a public event in town.
This I have never done before. I have shared my vanilla poetry before, at some past events, but never my alternative stuff.
I have also never been to Montreal’s Alternative Lifestyles Community Centre (ALCCVA). What is Montreal’s Alternative Lifestyles Community Centre (ALCCVA) all about, you may ask?
Well, I think the Centre is about some dark & delightful dreams finally coming true in Montreal.
The ALCCVA is all about a host of alternative lifestyle people finding a home & resource, where they all feel welcome. Maybe you are a swinger, or are polyamorous. Gay Leathermen. Furries. Cross dressers. Queer BDSM. Whatever your taste, sexual orientation or kink – you now have a place to turn to.
The Centre offers many workshops and seminars to suit a variety of tastes. Learn how to play safe. It’s all there for you.
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Here is a list of what’s coming up at the ALCCVA:
* Sunday, November 21 from 4:30 pm to 6:00 pm
ALCCVA Violet Wand 101 Workshop / Atelier (bilingue)
* Sunday, November 21 from 7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
ALCCVA Dark & Erotic Poetry / Poésie erotique et noire Groupe (bilingue)
* Wednesday, November 24 from 7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
ALCCVA Medical Hygene Workshop / Hygiène médicale - Atelier (bilingue)
* Saturday, November 27 from 2:00 pm to 5:00 pm
Massage Lovers Group - Groupe Amateurs de massage (Bilingual / Bilingue)
* Saturday, November 27 from 5:00 pm to 9:00 pm
ALCCVA Potluck/ Repas-partage
* Sunday, November 28 from 10:00 am to 2:00 pm
ALCCVA First Aid & CPR Course / Premiers secours de RCR (bilingue)
* Sunday, November 28 from 7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
ALCCVA Leather Lifestyles / Style de vie Cuir Groupe (bilingue)
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Yes, I will be reading a selection of my kinky writes at the ALCCVA Dark & Erotic Poetry / Poésie erotique et noire Groupe (bilingue) event.
If you want to meet this Enigmatic Angel LIVE and in person, this is a rare opportunity to do so.
Those who know me know I rarely attend kinky events in town.
And you know what? I have never even heard of a dark & erotic poetry event being hosted in town. So that’s another kinky first, as far as I know.
Come and see me….if you dare.
Kinky kisses,
Angel
Friday, November 19, 2010
An Enigmatic Poetry Reading: The Enigmatic Angel LIVE @ The Alternative Lifestyles Community Centre (ALCCVA)
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Montreal's Alternative Lifestyles Community Centre Brings Kink On Campus For World AIDS Week
It was the perfect audience for a frank discussion: young, open-minded, sexually aware & interested in practicing & promoting safe sex.
The discussion? The McGill University Global AIDS Coalition's panel on “Positive Pleasures: the Stigma of Sex Work and HIV/AIDS.”
This year from November 15 to 18, McGill Global AIDS Coalition will be collaborating with other initiatives like CANFAR and Médecins Sans Frontières to conduct World AIDS Week on the McGill University campus. World AIDS Week is a series of events designed to educate the community about issues relating to HIV, global health, and human rights as well as raise money for the Stephen Lewis Foundation.
Add our kinky community’s very own Contessa Alura & her ground-breaking Alternative Lifestyles Community Centre (ALCCVA) and there you have it – a winning mix to get the message out about alternative lifestyles.
Other panel speakers were McGill University’s Dr. Pierre-Paul Tellier, and Dr. Diane Meaghan, an author of books on the international sex trade.
Dr. Tellier, McGill University's Director of Student Health Services, spoke about the questioning gay and lesbian youth he sees in his practice that are all too often forced to turn to what he called “survival sex”, sex that such youth are forced to turn to survive when they end up on the street. He advocated for very early on sex education in our schools, where children would be taught to see the body as a positive thing, something to be proud of.
Dr. Diane Meaghan spoke of a host of very grim statistics around the world of sex trade workers, who in her words are “criminalized and stigmatized” and who are seriously at risk for HIV infections.
Center stage in both placement and also with the young crowd’s attention, Contessa Alura stood up to talk straight talk (so to speak hehe) about BDSM, what it means, about her experiences as a Pro Domme, and also about her ground-breaking ALCCVA organization, which she hopes will be a resource for a vast range of people from alternative lifestyles, from swingers to kinksters and more.
Here is a little blurb about the ALCCVA:
“The ALCCVA is a free and open space where like minded individuals can meet, share, learn, build and create meaningful relationships, discover, and seek information without fear, judgment, or discrimination.”
All this and more made for a very stimulation discussion and certainly raised a few questions in my mind.
Yes, your kinky intrepid & enquiring reporter (known as yours truly) noticed a few blank spaces that needed some filling.
So I mentioned the “b” word. You’re thinking beyaatch, right? lol
In this case the “b” word was bisexual.
As someone who identifies as being bisexual, I was struck by how this important segment in the sex trade and youth was simply not mentioned at all in this public discussion.
Ah there definitely was a reason for this, I soon found out.
Dr. Tellier admitted that bisexual youth were often left out and felt discriminated by both the gay/lesbian and straight communities and were marginalized.
Dr. Meaghan claimed that not many of the sex trade population identify as truly being bisexual. I really question this personally, as I know so many people in our local kinky community, and pro dommes included, DO identify as bisexual. When I chatted with the lovely Contessa Alura after the discussion was over, she told me she was glad that I brought up the bisexual question, during the Q & A part of the evening. She definitely had her own opinions on that.
I was happy to learn that the ALCCVA has a new & freshly growing group for bisexuals. Definitely something I’ll be checking out. We need more voices for our bisexual community in Montreal, that’s for sure.
Something else I brought up during the Q & A session was the tracking & statistics concerning Pro Dommes and the prevalence of HIV infections within that community.
The Contessa advised the crowd that sadly there is a great lack of tracking with this important question. In a perfect world, yes it would be great to have Pro Dommes studied seriously, with their need for protection and proper BDSM safe practices being promoted and encouraged.
As Contessa Alura said, Pro Dommes are starting younger and younger. As I looked at the young crowd around me, I thought about all the youngsters out there paying their way through university with Pro Domme sessions. This was the perfect young crowd to speak to, to reach that segment, I thought.
Contessa Alura mentioned something that I truly hope comes to pass one day. Just as the LGBTQ community is becoming more & more part of the mainstream and not as alternative as it once was, perhaps one day BDSM will also become part of the main and viewed as healthy and “normal”.
That would make for a Brave New World, indeed.
Kinky food for thought,
Angel
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
BDSM, The DSM & Orgasm Inc.
But seeing a screening of the movie Orgasm Inc. make me want to write something about the connection between BDSM, orgasms, and the vanilla world’s (and North American psychiatric circle’s) definition of what is “normal” in sexual function.
In a discussion with the sexologist present after the film screening, the speakers casually mentioned how so-called sexual dysfunction can be found in the DSM. Most people in the crowd had no clue what the DSM was/is, I have no doubt.
So enter the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition (DSM-IV) ...soon to be DSM-V. Commonly referred to as the DSM.
What the heck is that?
Well, basically it is the medical “bible” used by doctors and psychiatrists to diagnose aberrant mental behaviors and conditions.
And yes folks, you guessed it – they placed components of BDSM in there.
Now I’ll tell you about me & the DSM & BDSM. You see we have a long history together. Ha!
One of the first books that I ever read that described BDSM was a psychology textbook in college, which described different facets of BDSM, under the DSM category.
This, my kinky friends, was the first “factual”, scientific book that I read that described these strange fantasies that I had been thinking. And since the book is used to diagnose problems, well it definitely gave me a negative view about what I was feeling. Not very encouraging to say the least. Luckily I went on to discover other materials – and people – who explained BDSM in more positive terms. Which made me realize no I was not a freak. Other people felt the way I did. Phew.
An interesting premise of the movie that “female sexual dysfunction syndrome” was actually created by pharmaceutical companies who obviously have a vested interest in pushing the pills and a range of gadgets. Just imagine having a wire stuck into your spine to help you experience orgasms. There is something seriously disturbing about that, that someone would even come up with such a concept. What the sexologist said after the movie made much more sense – that basically people need to talk to each other, to explore their desires and work things out.
That wire looked like something out of a Frankenstein movie to me. Yikes!
But thinking and discussing what is normal in sexual function made me think about BDSM and sexuality. What is normal with that connection?
At the après-film discussion, I asked a few questions about the DSM and the answer I received, to me, seemed to prove the same point as the movie did.
Pharmaceutical companies create so-called sexual dysfunctions. North American psychiatrists sit together to decided what is “normal" sexual behavior and what is dysfunctional behavior and put that info into the DSM version of the year. And thousands of doctors and psychiatrists follow this directive and diagnose accordingly.
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Want to know what the DSM says about BDSM?
Check it out:
from AllPsychOnline
“Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition (DSM-IV)
Paraphilias and Sexual Disorders
Common Characteristics
Paraphilias all have in common distressing and repetitive sexual fantasies, urges, or behaviors. These fantasies, urges, or behaviors must occur for a significant period of time and must interfere with either satisfactory sexual relations or everyday functioning if the diagnosis is to be made. There is also a sense of distress within these individuals. In other words, they typically recognize the symptoms as negatively impacting their life but feel as if they are unable to control them.
Disorders in this Category
Exhibitionism
Fetishism
Frotteurism
Pedophilia
Sexual Masochism
Sexual Sadism
Transvestic Fetishism
Voyeurism"
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First of all, is it not disturbing to see S/M placed in the same category as Pedophilia??
And now let’s look at two specifics here:
"Sexual Masochism
Category
Paraphilias and Sexual Disorders
Etiology
There are different theories related to sexual masochism, many stemming from the psychoanalytic camp. They suggest that childhood trauma (e.g., sexual abuse) or significant childhood experiences can manifest itself in exhibitionistic behavior.
Symptoms
Sexually masochistic behaviors are typically evident by early adulthood, and often start with masochistic or sadistic play in childhood. The disorder is characterized by either intense sexually arousing fantasies, urges, or behaviors in which the individual is humiliated, beaten, bound, or made to suffer in some way.
Sexual Sadism
Category
Paraphilias and Sexual Disorders
Etiology
There are different theories related to sexual sadism, many stemming from the psychoanalytic camp. They suggest that childhood trauma (e.g., sexual abuse) or significant childhood experiences can manifest itself in exhibitionistic behavior.
Symptoms
Sexually sadistic behaviors are typically evident by early adulthood, and often start with masochistic or sadistic play in childhood. The disorder is characterized by either intense sexually arousing fantasies, urges, or behaviors in which the individual is sexually aroused by causing humiliation or physical suffering of another person.”
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So apparently we all got messed up in childhood and that’s why we like pain/like causing pain?
Oh boy.
You know, on the one hand I really enjoyed watching the movie and discussion, because it opened my mind a lot to the North American view on sexuality and the impact that pharmaceutical companies have on whether or not we feel we are “normal”.
On the other hand, these DSM psychiatrists have a ways to go before they understand people like us, the kinky folk, the fetishists, the transvestites & transgendered, and the oh so many variations of BDSMers out there.
My question:
Where do we go from here?
Should we even try to make inroads in the psychiatrist community to be better understood?
Kinky food for thought.
Angel
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Enigmatically Luscious: e[lust] #21
Welcome to e[lust] - Your source for sexual intelligence and inspirations of lust from the smartest & sexiest bloggers! Whether you're looking for hot steamy smut, thought-provoking opinions or expert information, you're going to find it here.
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~ Featured Post (Lilly's Pick) ~
D/s Without the D/s? - This is one of those situations in a real time D/s relationship where much of the "fun"aspects of the D/s needs to be stuffed in the closet for a bit. And for us, it's not a great time to be either a masochist or a sadist. We can deal with that.
~ e[lust] Editress ~
Yes, Jelly Sex Toys Can be Dangerous - Even if a jelly rubber toy says "phthalate-free" it still can contain toxic chemicals that can cause skin reactions in some people. These toys are still non-porous and can harbor dirt and bacteria because they cannot be sanitized.
~ This Week's Top Three Posts ~
Unfortunately, this edition has no Top Three picks as I didn't have enough volunteer judges. If you'd like to volunteer to help, visit this page to find out more info and ensure that the Top Three picks continue.
See also: Pleasurists #101 and #100 for all your sex toy review needs.
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Sex News, Interviews, Politics & Humor
All Painted Up...
A Modest Proposal: Should Ginger & Cooper Fuck?
Happy Sexual Freedom Day
How Do You Explain
Life in spanking after 30: part 2
Erotic Writing
blindfold *****************my post*******************
Fantasy: Movie Night
Feeling Helpless
Gabrielle, Guest Star
Happy Anniversary...
History Lesson
I Still Don't Know How You Taste
Monday Morning 2am
Metallic Seduction
Need
New Erotic Story For The Holidays - Tinsel Temptation
Putting the car into park
The Ordeal (Part Four)
The Sweetest Violation
The Young Mom
The Moment
The Soccer Mom
Timeless in a Window's Light
Kink & Fetish
A space to hate and rage and be angry (photo story)
Beyond the Bedroom
Does liking Helmut Newton equal a fetish?
Happy Halloween: Light Me Up
I am all pins and needles
Kink and Fibromyalgia
Ownership and Monogamy
Punishing the servants
Pi
Switching It Up
The Cage
The Sacred Swinger Holiday: Halloween!
the most amazing night with HIM
The Pedicure
The Right Question
Wax on, wax off!
Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships
All Roads Lead to Acceptance... I hope!
Crisis Averted
Dear boyfriend, I love you. And your cock.
Having Great Goddamned Expectations
If You Google it, I will Answer #9
I Don't Know If I've Ever Been Really Loved By a Hand That's Touched Me
How to Massage Man's G-spot
My Coming Out Story
National Coming Out Day
Recovering From Anorexia
Role Reversal
Sadie's Condom PSA
Saturday, October 16, 2010
body of work
my enigmatically poetic body of work
my body at work
your body at work
and others
and others
and yet
which of those parts
are me
and mine
the answer
may be more elusive
than even
your fertile mind
can imagine.
***
blindfold
are you adventurous
i whispered in your ear
i saw the answer
glistening
in your eyes
but you knew
i expected
a reply
the word yes slipped out
of your mouth
with a soft sigh
good
i whispered
i placed the black, velvety blindfold
over your eyes
taking you
into the warm, welcoming dark
my fingers caressed your neck
lingering lightly
over the rapid, frenetic pulse
in your neck
right
there
and then
the games
began.
***
Thursday, October 14, 2010
temptation
so delicate, it was
the connection
tenuous and silky
a spider’s web of temptation
beckoning
did she take one step
forward
or one step back
choices
driven by the hungry flesh
the mind
the need
the something something
almost there
there was a metallic taste
in her mouth
the taste of
anticipation
and greed
and wanting what was bad
and damning the consequences
did she reach out
did she see what was lurking
behind the shadows
did she dare
choosing to dance the dance meant
no going back
but oh
her mind wondered
and wandered.
*** Angel
Enigmatically Luscious: e[lust] #20
~ This Week’s Top Three Posts ~
On Making Sex Last: Cheerleading & Open Relationships - as long as the possession stuff can be fun and consensual, and not interfering with each other’s sovereignty, I think the two—cheerleading and possession—aren’t necessarily mutually exclusive.
Owned – I had almost forgotten that while here, with him, I was HIS plaything. I was OWNED by him. We had discussed this. I knew the rules. I must not forget again.
The sheer indecency of what we are doing – Is he looking for what I’m looking for? Surely so—all men want that, don’t they? A flaming succubus that comes only in the dark to bring unworldly pleasures and leave behind strange lingering dreams that spice their dutiful daytime lives.
~ Featured Post (Lilly’s Pick) ~
Stop Hating on Campus Sex Education – Clearly, there is a need for this education, because if it doesn’t come from sexuality educators, it comes from word of mouth (which can often provide incorrect information), or from the internet, or from trial and error.
~ e[lust] Editress ~
See also: Pleasurists #96 and #97 for all your sex toy review needs.
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Kink & Fetish
A teabreak tawsing
Blow job
Caribbean Screw
His evil twin
My adventure in subbing continues
My Big Pink Robot
Play Party!
Sisters unite for the MFW, part 2
The one with the Violet Wand
Turning Lemons into Lemonade
Wanton Wednesday: Bitten
Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships
Cunning Linguists Are We: Cunnilingus 101
Crushing Swingerphobia by Hitting the Club
Coming Out & Invisible Illness
Hold Up Stockings
My First Grue in Review
NSE – New Swinger Energy
Relationships and Emotions
Sadie’s Thoughts on Cheating. Confession #507
Three’s Company, Too – Dreaming of the Multi-Relationship Home
The Sisterhood
Thoughts on bisexuality and visibility
When I’m Done With Crying…
Why Lie, Why Cheat?
Erotic Writing
A Raise
Any Idea?
Buttlove
Building the Anticipation
Coming Back to Me
Extraordinary Uses for Ordinary Objects
“Enslaved The Story of Jen” Chapter 13
Fantasy: Waking Up
Hotel windows…
I Give Good Head
Lipstick Kisses
Like Mother, Like Daughter
My first little girly night
One Night With NSVG
Oh, What a Night!
Revisited
Rekindling
She
Something in the Air
sacks, part one
The Quick Ebony Fux
up lateish
Friday, October 1, 2010
an echoing spank
and my mind took me
elsewhere
somewhere i had not been
in awhile
the upside
and downside
of the spank
striking the sensitive flesh
both sides of it
the pain received
the pain given
the symphony of pain
sounding and sounding and sounding
through the air
how the currents change
how the tension builds and builds
how the breath speeds
starts and stops at
the sheer shock of it
how how how
a spank feels and sounds and reverbates
inside and out
for a moment
i was
there.
***
Thursday, April 29, 2010
the girl with the amy winehouse hair
the girl with the amy winehouse hair
walked through the subway
with her eyes cast down
on her shoes
oh how
I would have liked to
mess up her hair
more.
Monday, April 19, 2010
the sensual world
I am a sensual creature.
I don’t say sensual in that throw-away fashion, where sexuality is common, obvious and flaunted. But in the most literal sense – a creature of senses.
My senses experience so much on an exquisitely fine-tuned level and that is multiplied and multiplexed, when it comes to my sexuality and sensuality.
For me the barest touch electrifies my skin, the softest whisper descends on my ear with porcelain china clarity, the lightest scent fills my mind with a myriad images.
I told someone recently that amazing sex for me can be like a drug.
It can literally blow my mind. For days. The echoes just go on and on and on.
Exquisite torture and bliss, a never-ending mélange of it.
Hard to describe the effect on my mind and body.
But I just savor each delicious drop of it.
And this is why I have created a sensual, rather than sexual, space here.
In this blog, in this space and time.
There are plenty of spaces for your straight-forward porn and sex toys for sale.
All that has its value and is good.
You’ll even find a link or two on my blog.
But that is not, and will never be, what my blog is about.
Whether I am being kinky, or not.
The wonderful thing about being enigmatic is that I love to torture the mind with hints of this and that, a taste of heat, a slither of the most sensual touches.
I will whisper in your ear, as you read along.
But it’s up to you to guess what I’m saying.
This is my sensual world.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
why
Why
I’m asking myself why I blog and write this particularly enigmatic blog.
I think it’s good to re-ask the question sometimes.
Today it struck me how incredibly intimate a kinky little blog like mine can be.
Even when I write in my most cryptic, enigmatic of ways.
The question is: do I still want to blog here, in this enigmatic space?
I don’t know the answer to that.
Part of that answer is because my bdsm interests have gone through such a sea change, that I hardly recognize them these days.
My relationship to pain has changed. The submissive part of me has changed.
And the dominant part of me has shifted her gaze onto other things as well.
So, am I still kinky?
Yes and no. I’m frankly not sure.
I know I have been spending much much more time with experiments in the vanilla world. I’ve been busy dating. And dating a lot. Even my vanilla dating patterns have changed.
I just don’t know where my kinky footing is right now.
I’ve always been somewhat of a unique creature on the bdsm side of things, somewhat of a rogue that didn’t quite fit anywhere. I was fine with that. I knew it would be quite the challenge to find any play partners that would get me, because of my eclectic and different interests.
But now I am wondering if I have just completely gone through a change on an elemental level.
Well, the jury is out on this kinky folks.
Think I will have to go out and see if I can grok this fully.
Be back later.
Angel
Thursday, April 1, 2010
sweet pain
sweet pain
i knew you when
we danced well together
you and i
we both gave and took
we spun on a dime
and twisted back
you kissed me
like no other lover kissed
you never needed promises
or to promise
because you just were what you were
it was enough
it was beyond enough
my flesh became molded
by your touch
the sense memories worked way deep
just with one small flicker
oh my body remembers
you were the ultimate ride
slick subtle
crude rough raw
and everything in between
oh sweet pain
i knew you when
***Angel
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Friday, March 19, 2010
shadows
shadows
dance lightly on the landscape
shades
light, dark
everything in between
the shades of desire
want, need, lust, cravings
they carve out the hills and valleys
of the flesh
they paint in with a hint of colour
the swirling fantasies of the mind
shadows
they dance
they play
they tease
they torment
just
out
of
reach…
***Angel
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Thursday, March 18, 2010
e[lust] #3 - Delayed Gratification
I seemed to have a devil of a time posting the very first edition of e[lust] that I was listed in. Hope you enjoy this much-delayed forbidden taste. Yummm.
Kinky kisses,
Angel
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♦ This Week’s Top Three Posts ♦
Presence – I wish that you would look at me now. I am willing you to look at me now, over her body, rocking with the motion of her mouth. But you do not.
Restraint – “Do you like what you see?” the blonde asks. “Are you excited by what’s before you?” the redhead enquires. He nods.
What Not to Fetishwear – DON’T wear a PVC sleeveless vest if you fall into the rotund category. You will look like a bowling ball. With chubby arms.
◊ e[lust] Editress ◊
Fucking for Art – The proximity of their nakedness and my scrutiny resulted in this beautiful agony of arousal for them both. I asked if they would feel comfortable doing some poses of vaginal penetration for me, and they readily agreed.
♦ Featured Post ♦
The Naked Truth – He didn’t just write a pretty story we could act out, he worked hard to delicately lay us out on the page together, as we are.
See also: Pleasurists #56 and #57 for all your sex toy review needs
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Sex News, Interviews, Politics & Humor
Propaganda Sucks in All Directions
Which Reindeer Sex Style Are You?
Five Tuesday: 2010 AVN Award Nominees
Kink & Fetish
Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships
Wife Unsure About Sex With Others
Are You Just Kinky or Is It a Lifestyle
Erotic Writing
lust **************************my post**************************
Daydreams & Distractions Droit de Cuissage
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Tuesday, March 9, 2010
hot
she clutched the sheets
it was beyond hot
you could just taste
the desire in the air
slick flesh gleamed in the half-light
someone moaned, someone laughed softly
overhead the fan clicked by
with a drowsy blur of gears
it was good
it was so good
and the moment just stretched….
out
the echo of a scream floated by
as two bodies lay
spent on the bed
it was beyond hot
as she let go
of the sheets.
***Angel
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Saturday, February 20, 2010
a silvery kiss of pain
a night at the loft
long ago
when i earned
my one & only
loft mark
i had stood admiring
a blurry blend of spinning sticks
and silvery-steel stars
i took a fascinated closer look
when the sticks
ground down
to a halt
and then
suddenly a quick bright flash
and a silvery star
suddenly cut
deep into my flesh
oh naughty boy
how did you know
how did you know I wanted a taste
how did you know I wanted a taste of that pain
and what a deliciously sharp pain
blossomed
oh too sharp
oh too tasty
beautiful painful blossoming
kissing my skin
my instinct
made me push
back
against it
deeper, harder, sharper
I wanted it
claiming the pain blossom
for a deeper moment
deeper into my flesh
and mind
for a moment
I flew
climbed the lightening
bright bite of it
higher and higher
oh yes higher
in real-time
it lasted perhaps
a nanosecond
in my brain
it rolled through me
for days and days
I fluttered up
up up and away
up out of my head
somewhere deep inside
masochistspace
I looked down
from a dizzy great height
with amusement
at the silvery star mark
left on my arm
my inattendu loft-marking
that made me smile
for days.
***
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beg
beg on your knees
beg for release
beg for attention
beg to please
beg to be touched
beg to be tied
beg to be used
beg to be abused
beg for pain
beg to submit
beg to serve
beg to be considered
beg to be inspected
beg to be toyed with
beg to be teased
beg to be tortured
beg to have long nails scour your back
beg to have your hair pulled tight
beg to be pinched and pulled
beg to be marked and coloured with pain
beg
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Monday, February 15, 2010
Trust
It's an interesting topic, no?
Yes, it's been on my mind a lot lately.
In some ways, I have been very blessed, when it comes to trust.
I've played with someone for years now with whom I share a complete trust.
But I have come across oh so many before and since, of the other kind.
Safe. sane and consensual.
Now does that apply to truth? Or half-truths?
You tell me.
There are so many half-truths and outright fabrications when people treat with desire that it simply boggles my mind sometimes.
I am so very grateful that there is someone special who has my trust.
So many...just don't.
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
An Enigmatically Terrible & Cruel Compassion
It takes an Enigmatic Angel to write about a compassion that is terrible and cruel.
Compassion has been a part of me and my life seemingly forever – and lately I’ve been thinking about how I brought my compassion with me on my BDSM journey as well.
I’ve always been very empathic. I have seen inside people’s souls in ways no one has seen. And I have loved people as I have seen into their souls, if even for a brief moment. Loved strangers in the street I passed by but once, and loved others who crossed my path countless of times.
Sometimes people have mistaken that love for something else. It is not an erotic love that I speak of, but a love pure and bright white for my fellow human beings. The compassionate love that understands and accepts.
“Love as thou wilt”.
Those were the words I read one day in Jacqueline Carey’s Kushiel dark fantasy series, and how those words resonated when I read them.
Those who know me know how much I am fascinated and fond of this Kusheline Legacy. This strangely dark and tempting tale of gods and angels, with that undercurrent of pain and domination and submission in it.
And of this tale I was drawn most to a God of Love, Elua, who bid all to love as one wilt, and his darkest of Angels and Companions, Kushiel. Kushiel, the Punisher of God. The angel who delivers sinners, washes their sins away in a wave of pain and fire. The angel who delivers pain with eternal compassion and delivers complete and pure forgiveness.
Oh yes, this Kushiel was the one I was most drawn to, a strongly rebounding echo of my own dark and pain-kissed journey, my BDSM path that I have walked.
Someone asked me recently why I chose this name of Angel and every aspect of that why was what I saw in the mirror’s reflection of this Kushiel. That aspect of light and dark co-mingled with love. That terrible compassion that knows the darkest cravings hidden deepest in the spirit. That incredible sense of release that comes with that rain of pain crashing down on the flesh. I have known that blessed release from both sides of it. And I have fully savored both sides of it.
I have known that cleansing feeling of giving in completely, irrevocably to that pain administered with love and compassion. And I have tasted that heady powerful mix of delivering that pain with complete love and compassion as well.
Oh Elua. Oh Kushiel.
Love and compassion. Love and punishment.
Yes. Oh yes.
It’s funny that I haven’t talked or written much of this Kushiel Legacy, considering how much I have loved reading these tales and books over and over.
I was thinking lately about the characters in the books and thought about which of those characters I most identified with. Truth be told, there is a little of all of them in me. I have endless compassion for this original heroine of Phedre no Delauney, an anguisette, touched by the gods to experience endless pleasure in pain. What a beautiful thing. To live this pain to balance the scales for all those who have no conscience. To offer up that endless pain and pleasure as tribute.
I am no Phedre but I understand her very well. She is a part of my own nature, but then, Kushiel, who touches her blessed life, is part of me as well.
I have been thinking on all of this lately as a few submissives have crossed my path this past week. Including a former submissive who still thinks of me, it seems.
I was thinking about how this character of Phedre loves all the patrons she serves, a little. But I believe the other side of that coin is true as well. A patron dominant loves all the submissives who serve them a little as well.
Not love as simply an enjoyment of playing and sex.
But that terribly compassionate love that loves the gift of submission offered up in play.
My empathic ability and compassion have been served in an interesting and intriguing way when I have played during this dark BDSM path of mine.
Knowing and understanding the submission that has been offered up to me and giving them the gift of that release into their fantasies. That is a precious gift. I have treasured it as submissives have come and gone. As I send them on their way, with love.
People forget sometimes that love is about loving in the moment.
There is nothing possessive about that love.
That love is liberating. It is freeing a soul to express itself and walk their own path, long after the play is done.
At times I have felt my gift of compassion has been a gift and a curse.
But I have never wished I did not have or feel it.
And if I can continue to bestow that terrible compassion with tenderly cruel ministrations, ah then it is a gift indeed.
Love as thou wilt, indeed.
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e[lust] #3
Will update soon.
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