Thursday, February 20, 2014

An Enigmatically Lingering Taste of Vanilla...and Relationships

Well Hello Again my Kinky Friends,

Oh my it HAS been a long time since I posted here. Almost 2 years! Where did the time go?

And where have I been?

So much to answer to that.

I evolved so very much since the last time I posted in April 2012.

As my BDSM evolution continued, I experienced and experimented with many roles.

For six months, I had a relationship with a fellow Switch who was submissive to me. I was his Domme. And that was quite the learning experience. I learned so much about myself and what I want and do not want in relationships. That relationship did not last, but the friendship that came out of it did, to this day.  He is a good friend.

When I ventured out again, I discovered that I had lost my interest in the D/s part of BDSM. The Dominant/submissive dynamic.

And much to my surprise I somehow morphed into a Sadomasochist for awhile.

While I had always had a taste for pain, I seemed to have had a perspective on Sadomasochists as being too extreme for me to ever be one. After-all, I had such an ingrained caring self, being an Angel and all. How could I ever just want pain and nothing else?

Oh but I did. And I quite found the experience to be so delicious!

And along THAT path, suddenly I decided to try public play for the first time in my life. I NEVER thought that would happen. I am truly a private person, this blog (and other blogs I write), notwithstanding.

But suddenly I felt so free! And I wanted a taste. So I did, I did taste oh I did.
It was good, baby. :D

That was a nice, happy time filled with light playful play, with pain pain and more pain. Just lovely. It just felt – good.

But then April 2012 rolled around, and then I stopped posting to this blog.

So what happened? What happened was that I met the most wonderful man, out in the wonderful vanilla world.

After a 27 hour first date, he simply and quietly captured my heart.
And we have been together ever since.
And so I have changed.

My perspective on writing this blog has also changed.
I feel such a deep peace within myself, within my soul now.

I will remain an erotic soul in the way all souls have the potential to be erotic souls, when fully embacing their sexuality and at peace with themselves.

That was always a part of me, whether I was kinky or not.

I will continue to add posts in this blog, but the direction of the blog will subtly change.

You shall have to tune in to see just how this blog will change for yourselves.

Kinky kisses,
Angel :)

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