the pain of my writing (let it bleed)

bleed
baby, bleed
he said

he told me once
or a million times
(half jokingly, half not)
that i should suffer
all the time
because of the
quality of my writing
when i was
in pain

i looked at him
the last time
he said that to me
and as I looked at him
i found myself
*staring into an Abyss
and the Abyss
stared back at me

ever so quietly
and gently
i replied:
No.

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* “When you stare into the abyss the abyss stares back at you.”
- Friedrich Nietzsche