An Enigmatically Lingering Taste of Vanilla...and Relationships

Well Hello Again my Kinky Friends,

Oh my it HAS been a long time since I posted here. Almost 2 years! Where did the time go?
 
And where have I been?

So much to answer to that.

I evolved so very much since the last time I posted in April 2012.

As my BDSM evolution continued, I experienced and experimented with many roles.

For six months, I had a relationship with a fellow Switch who was submissive to me. I was his Domme. And that was quite the learning experience. I learned so much about myself and what I want and do not want in relationships. That relationship did not last, but the friendship that came out of it did, to this day.  He is a good friend.

When I ventured out again, I discovered that I had lost my interest in the D/s part of BDSM. The Dominant/submissive dynamic.

And much to my surprise I somehow morphed into a Sadomasochist for awhile.

While I had always had a taste for pain, I seemed to have had a perspective on Sadomasochists as being too extreme for me to ever be one. After-all, I had such an ingrained caring self, being an Angel and all. How could I ever just want pain and nothing else?

Oh but I did. And I quite found the experience to be so delicious!

And along THAT path, suddenly I decided to try public play for the first time in my life. I NEVER thought that would happen. I am truly a private person, this blog (and other blogs I write), notwithstanding.

But suddenly I felt so free! And I wanted a taste. So I did, I did taste oh I did.
It was good, baby. :D

That was a nice, happy time filled with light playful play, with pain pain and more pain. Just lovely. It just felt – good.

But then April 2012 rolled around, and then I stopped posting to this blog.

So what happened? What happened was that I met the most wonderful man, out in the wonderful vanilla world.

After a 27 hour first date, he simply and quietly captured my heart.
And we have been together ever since.
And so I have changed.

My perspective on writing this blog has also changed.
I feel such a deep peace within myself, within my soul now.

I will remain an erotic soul in the way all souls have the potential to be erotic souls, when fully embacing their sexuality and at peace with themselves.

That was always a part of me, whether I was kinky or not.

I will continue to add posts in this blog, but the direction of the blog will subtly change.

You shall have to tune in to see just how this blog will change for yourselves.

Kinky kisses,
Angel :)

Enigmatically Luscious: e[lust] #35

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~ Top 3 ~
Strangers in a bar – She sensed him move along the bar, he took the seat next to her his knee brushing her thin stockings as he took in her dress and the way it waved over her curvaceous figure.
Dealing with Abuse in Our Communities – We’re only human (yes, dominants ARE human) and mistakes happen. But what you do with the information that you’ve harmed someone is key.
Special Request – Walking to his desk, he pulled off his belt and put it on the left side, then pulled out a paddle and put it in the middle and then a cane on the right hand side.

~ Featured Post (Picked by Lilly) ~
What Keeps Us Going – We co-existed, and we were generally happy with each other, but we were dysfunctional. You know how people talk about becoming roommates rather than lovers? Guilty.

~ e[lust] Editress ~
Sex Toy Journalism: Seeking the Truths of Silicone via Flame Testing and Confronting Manufacturers – Why flame test? “Pure” silicone, be it food grade or medical grade, shouldn’t melt or deform under the heat of an open flame from a disposable lighter or match – a fact you’ll see demonstrated in the video

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationships
Comparisons Part Three
Cosmic Vibrations
Momentum: Reflections and Impressions
My Feminine Fountain is Finally Flowing (I squirted for the 1st time!)
PolyAnna’s Musings: Attraction
Q&A Number 1: Play Partners
Sexual Bucket List (and a Brief Diatribe on My Self Censorship Hang Up)
The “Dry Rut/Root”! Non-sex?
Intolerance – Contraception Debate, Religious Intolerance, & Grumpy Cooper

Erotic Writing
Come Together
Encounter in the Spa
Flame
Good Bad Sex
I needed him there and then
inside ******************************MY POST***********************************
Make Me Cum
Namaste
Onomatopoeia
Play Lady Play
Quitting While Ahead
Rampage – YSL’s birthday treats
sleep
the Confidante and I film ourselves
third
The first time I slept with the Girl in the Red DressTiming Is Everything
We drink each other’s cum

Kink & Fetish
Assignment from M
Buttons
Cigars
Fucked Raw
Foot fetishists, come talk to me
Imprints
Make Me
Nice vs. Good
On “Closure.”
Practicing My Religion
Please Fuck Me
Snap

Sex News, Interviews, Politics & Humor
Annie fucking Sprinkle
Voice and the Author

unzip me

unzip me

slide the silk
down
my back
scratch your nails
along
my exposed neck

grab my hair
and twist
and pull

let your fingers
explore
all my bare skin

unzip me

free me
feel me
taste me

play

and then

do it
all over
again.

***

inside

hey
how did
you
get in
here,
i said

i
used
my
imagination,
he said

oh really?
show me,
i said

and
he
did.

***

the limits of control

who do you
think
you are

who do you
want to
be

you dance
along the
edge
of
the knife

you can just
taste
the tang of steel
pressed up
against
the trembling skin

the question is:
do you
back away
or do you
press against
the sharp
edge
of it

you’ve been
here
before

you remember
the sharp taste
of
this pain

each time
you
play a game

seeing
how far
you will
go
seeing
how badly
you want
that
taste

the question is:
which side
of
the knife
do you
choose
this time

you dance
on the
edge
of
the knife

you dance
on the
edge
of control

choose.

make
your
choice.

***

flip

I contemplate
the Switch

should I go
left
should I go
right
should I be
Dominant
should I be
submissive

or should I choose
elsewhere
and should I choose to be
different

something new
that I never was before
somewhere else
that I have never explored before

my future
morphs
flows
shifts
changes

in an eye-blink of time

who knows
what will happen
this time
when I decide to
flip
the
switch.

***

power

it resonates
in every cell
in every thought
in every gesture

the power to say no
the power to say yes
the power to speak
the power to move

the power to control
the power to shape
the power to tease
the power to torment

a power exchanged
a power entrusted
a power valued
a power relinquished

power is a heady drug
power is a liberator
power is a need expressed
power is a gift

once you taste it, you want more
once you give it, you want to give more

tasty
seductive
shiny
delicious
power.

***